We laugh in the sunshine with our Lion like power

When I have space alone
when I am gentle, encouraging, questioning
that's when I feel right

When I'm with a woman, just me and her
when I speak gently, encouraging, arising mindful questions
that's when I feel right

When I'm with a man
I feel like I must prove myself
perhaps my own masculinity and femininity are unsure of each other

When I'm with a man, any man, be it friend, lover, father, uncle, brother,
I want him to love me
I want him to accept me, appreciate me
I want him to be there
I want to laugh with him, but I am intimidated by him

I crave being with men
I love their energy

I change romantic partners almost yearly- I don't mean to, some unconscious thing I'm hopfully changing
I try to fix men
Maybe I'm trying to fix the masculinity in myself.

Deep down I want men to adore me,
I imagine myself as a Goddess, with all men loving me, not having crazy sex with me or feeding me grapes!
Just flowing with me, like we're all swimming in the air. I am the center, they flow around me. I am enough, in my Goddess self, I am appreciated, they are gentle, soft spoken, they are leaders as am I, and we laugh in the sunshine with our Lion like power. Swirling around me, dancing! The dance of life.
I am grounded and yet floating in my stature. My hair flows long, golden blonde light bearing. My curls flow, my hair springs from my head like a Lion's mane. Like how it does already in "reality." Oh reality, you are an amazing illusion.

With my shifting reality, I've been seeing computer glitches- in real life!
I see static, I see something where it isn't suppose to be, and when I look back, its gone.
Reality is playing tricks on me, and its really fun! Reminders to laugh, It's all just a game. Just a play, this is my character, my role to play. Mistakes are what make it interesting. You get to see the true colours in midst of mistakes. Revealing the real, inspiring Universe!