This is the colourful grey area

Sometimes I think that you are my half,
sometimes you seem to know everything that is happening within me,
I send yellow light to you and you wake up to everything, now,
You look to me and suddenly are accepting

Its like everything in between the dark and the light
held within the yin and the yang, no extremes,
this is opposite, the grey area

Sometimes I think you will never understand
as you seem to have this power that pushes me
I fight it, I detest it,
yet in the end I come out shiny and new
I still hate you for it
And I Love you so deeply too

It's not death or life
Its not black or white
I love you
yet I love me too

I surrender to not knowing
And now i know it all