dark vortex

darkness

swirling vortex

everything blurs

grays, blacks and odd white patches

distorted faces with hanging mouths

lifeless eyes and turning necks

crushes my head

i try to run but cant see the way

head crushing

neck crunching

close my eyes

deny entry

wish to cry but can't find the energy

I'm not afraid for fear is a luxury here

i am lost

i am non-existent

put me in my cell

lock the doors, bar the windows

i will only disappoint you again and again

for i am a failure

it is written in my name

I am alone

searching is my game

a fool playing a foolish game

but who is the fool?

I meet her dead on

her majestic eyes are filled with depth

we look at each other

mirror images

she puts out her hand

my crushing head rushes through my ears

my stomach lurches

but I calmly grab her hand

music blasts and we are dancing now

running through a path in the vortex

I see dark purples and blues now

shes is beautiful

she guides me through

clenching jaw still tight

my brows and neck ache

she turns around on the path

puts her hand up to my head

In a different language she sings

feel the pain

welcome it as a friend

for this is only temporary

have you forgotten again?

I go on

dancing and weaving

the fog begins to rise

dissipating from the corners of my eyes

the crushing is gone

I start to hunger for life

memories of greatness

counting my blessings

how much I am given

How much I am

We slow to a walk

I look around

The storm is over

I don't know when