I wait

I wait,
for him to come home
for something to excite me
for light to creep on in

I wait,
to listen to my inner voice
to hear the voice
to trust myself enough

I wait,
for summer to come again
the sun to shine close and warm
the waves to crash in my ears

I wait,
for things to change
for money to somehow build
for us to get ourselves together

I wait,
to get ahead
to eat the foods my body craves
to give myself what I need

I wait,
for this, for that
for me, for you

I wait to wait again

I wait again and again
endlessly

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Jumping up and down in excitement,
smiling wide and contagiously
my bright blue shirt, mixes with my bright blue eyes
the twinkle is breathtaking
here I am trying to feel light

Feeling heavy and stuck, dark and grey
like my brain is calcified, cemented
like my blood is black and dark
how can I shine like this?

Its like all inspiration is zapped
nothing left to flow
but there is so much,
I can feel it trapped inside a box deep down inside
I want to sleep,
but even that takes energy

I cling on to him
he soothes the burning in me somehow
with quietness and continual flow
his light is always aglow