Feeding my body love

I eat the food. 

But my body refuses it.

It goes through me too fast

No absorption

Food is the enemy

I stuff down emotions with food

Instead of expressing myself, 

I send the feelings down with every bite,

So the energy of the food is sad (mostly very sad), guilty,embarrassed, lost, lonely, bored, frustrated... 

Of course my body doesn't want to absorb that.

Blessed I am that I don't assimilate those emotions into storage for later use.

Blessed I am, my body takes care of me better than I take care of my body

I love you body

I promise now, after all these years to love you back as much as you love me

I promise to eat and drink with love

I am hungry

my stomach aches for nourishment and love, to be valued 

To be listened to, and not just ignored

I am hungry for love, from me, to me

I go to the fruit of my labor

the love of mother GAIA, my garden

my garden which I nourish and love 

I pick them with gratitude and joy

I appreciate the life force, 

and thank it as I pluck the fruits from it

I pull out the salmon berries in the freezer

picked with love from Rose, my sister,

Gifted with love

I blend it all

kale, swiss chard, lettuce, arugula, bok choy, parsley, basil, salmon berries, water, and a probiotic capsule

Colourful nutritious fruits of love

Seeds of life

I infuse it with love

I speak gratitude to my angels, my guides, my higher self, and of course source love (God)

I drink it with joy

I drink it with love

I focus on the action of drinking, swallowing, biting the seeds left in my mouth, feeling the texture, tasting the sweetness, the bitterness, the flavours mingling and changing each other

Each sip has a new taste

No more distractions

No more pollution

Just LOVE

Time begins now

I begin NOW

As I put a new battery in the beautiful clock I found for free on the side of the road and hear its first ticks, I know it is more symbiotic than just a simple start of a clock.

Time begins now. My time is now. I start now. I am beginning.
This is my beginning.

Left alone for the day, reconnecting with my Yin. ~Oh how I love my yin~

Dancing in yoga poses, singing the name of Shiva, surprising myself by the beautiful sounds that come from me. Stretching the aches and emotions pent up with slow and deliberate movements. Flowing, receiving love, and releasing what is not serving me.
Deep breath- in, and ahhhhh out.

The time is now, Begin!
When I found the clock on the road on my walk about a month ago, I admired it, then decided "meh, I don't need more stuff." I left it in its place but felt a tug towards it, perhaps from a guide. I thought "no, no, leave it be." But turned my body towards it anyways to pick it up.

The first touch awakened the first glimpse of my future office. For healing, for empowering, for supporting spirit and for success. I saw it in my minds eye. The zen, the pure energy, the simple green, and the simple white, and the wood colour of this circular frame which fit perfectly in the center. It is a very zen simple cock. White and black, with the simplest lines to represent the hours. The simple hands of time, and the wooden fresh polished fame. BEAUTIFUL. BE YOU TILL FULL.

I took it. I held it with joy knowing this piece is the first item of my office. It sat silently until today, just now, before writing this. After my reconnecting with my spirit, my body and my guides. I know today is the beginning. I've been dreaming up my dream job. I resonate with this job of my creation. An entrepreneurial job that no one else has done. Anise's job. Anise's value to the world. Empowering women, empowering children. Empowering women with children to tap in to their creative and powerful inspiration flows.

I knew it was time. Time to start the clock. Not to measure, or count. But to signify this is it. This is where it really begins, from intuitive waters to physical manifestation. I am a strong, empowered, spiritual being of love and light. And I know my strength and my worth and my value. I am beyond value (just as we all are) and it is time to allow my value to really shine.

Garden, Gemini, and Me!

 Snoozing in the Garden

Gemini now has shade provided by my garden! And my sunflower stalks are so thick I attach her leash to it! Its stable enough now, probably as thick as..2 inches circumference!

 Its all so tall~! Hard to tell through pictures, when your in person at my garden, its very tall. Its a whole new space created! The Peas and Sunflowers shade the parsley and basil a bit, and the flowers that cant handle hot sun! When I stand inside my garden I am amazed by the life!

 Chakra Aligning meditation by my garden, outside, with Gemini, my crystals (which I used for the meditation) and a dream catcher I made. I wanted to infuze it with all these amazing energies! Align with the Universe, and it aligns with you!

 This is what I think shes thinking " Oh, hey, you've got that weird tiny little metal box that makes funny sounds again. I don't know why you always are coming near me with that thing...(my camera!)

 Tiny, Garden kitty feet! ADORABLE

 Loving, Knowing Gaze

 I love her eye colour; In outside light they are green with a pale yellowy hue (on the outside of her Iris's). In inside light, her eyes look golden and slightly green.~

Gemini's view

Me! Look how tall the Sunflowers and Peas are!

I'm a flower too!

Check out how tall and lush everything is,

My favourite I think :)

Thanks for checking out my pictures and blog!

Sleepless Night Connections

sleepless nights
dream awake
third eye calls
awareness
stillness

chaos of the day
gone
no tomorrow
just now

crap in my eyes
itch on my skin
tired from the outpoor
emotional flood
the dam came lose again today

but the waters do not betray
for child, the stream is not to be resisted,
the flow will come whether you welcome her or not.

And I
lay awake
satisfied.

Intuition made visible

It is important for me to start using a pendulum again. I have been guided to more than a few times now. We all could benefit greatly by listening to our intuition more often. I wear my pendulum around my neck, its just a ring around a chain, but its beautiful Blue Indigo Purple Opal and I love it!

 This is from http://www.spiritual-endeavors.org/resources/pendulum.htm

by John and Micki Baumann sugilis@sedona.net

John writes monthly columns on the metaphysical properties of stones and crystals in magazines in several countries. Micki is an artist. Through her company, Deva Designs, she not only represents her own art pendants, hand sculpted on quartz crystals, but also represents other artists such as John M. Soderberg, one of the finest contemporary bronze sculptors in the world. For detailed information about quartz crystals, and other growth related topics, you may visit their website at http://users.sedona.net/~sugilis/index.html, or link directly to their site from our links page.

Using a Pendulum to Enhance Intuitionby John and Micki Baumann

How the Pendulum Works:

The pendulum can be thought of as an extension of the intuition, since it is used to gain access to information that exists at the subconscious level of the Inner Being. It could be said that it strengthens or amplifies the intuition because it converts the subtleties of the intuition into a more obvious form of physical motion. When you ask a question of the pendulum, it is your own intuition that answers it. The pendulum merely allows you to physically see what the intuition already knows. As an extension of the intuition, the pendulum can give you information from the same two sources as the intuition: from your own subconscious mind; and from your guidance, spirit, or guardian angel. Because of how it operates, the pendulum can only answer questions that are phrased so that the answer is either "yes" or "no".

Determining the "yes" and "no" Response:

Before using a particular pendulum for the first time, hold it in the appropriate position, and ask, either aloud or mentally, "Pendulum, please show me YES". Give the pendulum time to respond and observe the direction of the swing as it responds. If the swing is modest at first, don't be concerned, because it takes a while for a particular pendulum to begin to vibrate with you. After you have determined the YES response, ask the pendulum to show you the NO response in the same manner. Check the YES/NO response in this way, the first few times you do a session with the pendulum. This is necessary because different pendulums can give their YES and NO responses by swinging in different directions. Also, if at any time you feel you are not getting accurate responses, even after using the pendulum for a while, check the YES/NO response again. It is a good idea to check the YES/NO response periodically because it can change as you change and grow. It can also change if you let other people handle your pendulum.

Appropriate Types of Questions to Ask:

It is appropriate to ask a pendulum about things that are within your control, about situations where you have the right to make a choice, or about things your subconscious already has access to. For example, it is appropriate to ask whether it would be good for you to marry a particular person, but it not appropriate for you to ask whether he is going to ask you to marry him, because that is not your right to choose. In the same way, it is not appropriate to ask if you are going to meet your prince charming today, because that is not within your control. However, it is appropriate to try to divine other people's motivations or who they are inside, because you already know this at a subconscious level anyway. For example, it is appropriate to ask "Can I trust him? Does he want me for a friend, or only for what I can give him?"

What the Pendulum can be Used For:

The pendulum can be used for choosing between alternatives in a relatively wide range of areas. To get an answer from the pendulum, simply ask any yes/no question about a specific thing that would be good for you, but only in areas where you have the right to make the decision, for example, anything to do with health & healing, love or domestic relationships, career. Here are some typical areas where the pendulum can be used to good advantage:

•Making a Choice of any kind. (Do I want to travel for my vacation or stay home?) •Figuring out what is best to do. (Would it be better to keep my present job or look for a new job?) •Figuring out how you really feel about something. (Do I want children in the near future?) •Becoming more conscious of who someone is inside, to know his motivation, his compatibility with you. •Determining your probability of success in a situation.(Do I have what it takes to complete this course?) •Finding the cause of physical symptoms. (Is my diet causing my migraines?) •Determining what foods or vitamins to take. (Would it be good for me to double my Vitamin C intake?) •Determining what is causing an allergic reaction. (Am I lactose intolerant?) •Prospecting for water, oil, treasure. (Is there gold over here?) •Finding missing people or pets, or lost objects. (Is my key under the bed?) You can even use the pendulum with a map. Put the pendulum over a small area of the map and ask "Is Bowser here"?, and narrow it down in this way. Part of the knowledge that comes with experience in working with the pendulum is learning to sometimes start with broad questions, and then narrow them down.

Health:

The pendulum can be used to analyze what is going on in the human body. Each person subconsciously knows everything that is going on inside his body. This includes not only the physical things that are going on in the body, but also the mental, emotional and spiritual things. He knows what vitamins he is deficient in, what diseases he has, and why he has those diseases. He knows whether a product he is holding in his hand is toxic, allergenic, or useful and beneficial. He knows why he feels afraid under certain circumstances, and he knows what he needs to work on in order to grow spiritually. All this subconscious information can be made available to the conscious mind by learning to tune in to it with the aid of the pendulum.

Doing Pendulum Readings for Others:

Until you have had a lot of experience with the pendulum, do NOT try to use it to get information for someone else. There are ways to do this but it is difficult because the information comes from inside the person using the pendulum, and in order to use the pendulum on behalf of someone else, you have to be very tuned into the other person. Anyone can use the pendulum for himself, but few can use it for others. So don't do pendulum readings. Instead, make it a personal tool for yourself.

Things that can Cause an Incorrect Response from the Pendulum:

•Poor communication. (inaccurate phrasing) The most important thing is how you phrase the question. For example, don't just ask "Is this water good for me"?" Be more accurate: Good in what way? The water may have both good and bad aspects. For example, you may be extremely thirsty, so the water is good for replenishing your body fluids, but the water could be tainted and later give you diarrhea. So state the question more clearly such as "Will this water serve my highest and greatest good?" •Asking questions that are too general: Don't ask general questions such as "Is Mary healthy?" Rather ask specific questions such as "Is Mary's diet causing her health problems?" •Being tired. •Forcing the situation. Using the pendulum even though the time or circumstances may not be right. •Being off Center: Feeling mentally or emotionally out of balance. You need to be in the right frame of mind. •Focusing too heavily on the pendulum itself, and not enough on the information inside you. •Being too close to high frequency electrical equipment

Intense ~ poem

Intense
Up and down, I choose
over stability and boredom
I break apart and I am rebuilt

Right now
Intense
Influences taken over
Fight, yell, hurt

Freedom
Street dancing barefoot
Picking sleeping flowers
Moon rises, I rise up

crash down on me

Shattered
Gorgeous sound
Art for my ears
but it turns quickly

Accusations
he doesn't know what he does
Speak hate, judgement, racism
more hurt

Fight
spit starts it
He Swings
Impacts your jaw

Stop.

Acknowledged.
you listened to me
you put down your fists
We left him
Unharmed

Calmness
Authority at the door
In my space
why am I not afraid

Gratitude
for being valued
remembering the sound
all is still now

Reflection
What goes up
comes down

I Choose
Intensity
over stability

Goddess Free-flow (Knowings)

I AM A GODDESS

empowerment

entitlement

self worth, value

self love

I WALK WITH POWER

I ENTER THE SPACE I COME INTO

I embrace the energy, I embrace the space

I expand a little more each second

I shine brighter and brighter

I KNOW MY WORTH

I am SO worth-full! More than anything else in this world

I KNOW MY WORTH

I SPEAK MY WORDS

I WALK MY WALK

I FEEL MY FEELINGS

I AM a goddess, powerful and strong

Bright and balanced

I shine for myself

I shine for me

I free myself

I love myself

I LOVE MYSELF

I love my mind

I love my ego

I love my inner self

I love my body

I love it all

I love my bad

I love my good

I feel strong and empowered to live my life and serve

I do what I want, when I want to, I am absolutely free

I am intimately connected to everyone and everything

That is why I love and care for all

But I allow only the best to reach me

I will not hurt myself in order to help you

for that would be not appreciating my worth

I CARE WHAT I THINK

I do not bother myself with what you think

I think about good healthy empowering spiritual energies

I know they are swelling out of me and into me

I dance with the ebb and flow of life

I embrace when the tide is high

And I rest when it is low

My Body is open wide

allowing positive intention and flow

It is easy for me

I do not sacrifice anything, especially not myself

I am better than a butterfly, I expand further than what meets the eye.

I am.